YoniSpeak: Letting him In the Temple

Yoni Speaks:

I am angry. I have been transgressed. It was not him who desecrated me. It was you. You let him in too far - again!

I know, Woman. Together, we long to be touched in the Center, to be contacted in the deepest. We long to be seen for the radiant goddess-carrier we are, in our fullness, in our power. And we long to be met by one who is willing to look on the terrible beautiful face of this full goddess and Stay.

But this was not the man. You knew that. And you still seduced him into the holy of holies, inviting him to take whatever he wanted from our sacred place. Your longing took the better of you.

How can you now blame him? Did you tell him the truth of your imagined agreement? Did you clear his consent for ownership? How can you forget how to protect your Self so? You know how a man is programmed. He is dazzled by the Light in the Temple. He is driven by desire and instinct. It is your Temple, and your invitation, that draws him or keeps him at bay.

I know. It has been eons since you held the gates of the Temple for yourself. They took away your guards long ago. You were dragged, screaming, by your hair, down the marble steps of the temple, and into the street. You were cut, raped, opened, and bled. Many times. You still remember the punishment in every cell of your body. I do not blame you, Sister/Mother/Lover/Friend. But I Am Calling You Home to your Wisdom.

You ask, "How, Mother, do I know how far to let him in?" I tell you. If he comes to leave an offering, allow them to the steps, to leave his first offering at the gate. If he has been found worthy to receive from the temple, then let him in, but only to the entryway, the foyer, from which he might catch a glimpse of the glory, but not revel too long, not take it away. If you find he is trusted In Love, then allow him to approach your altar and pledge his devotion, to worship at your table. Meet him there and devote yourself with him. This is a deep place of offering, and even here, you are tempting heart break should you invite one who is not ready.

But only if you intend to let him Claim you, should you invite him so into the Holy of Holies. You know inside of yourself, this place where he touches, and you Fully Open. This is the place for your Priest and Partner. This is the sacred place of Trust reserved for the Priest of this Temple - the one who will protect her with his own Life. You will know this Priest because he will lay the needs of his ego aside gladly, and devote himself to the Vitality and Mystery that runs through you, honoring you as the keeper and the container, and pledging devotion to caring gently for this container in ongoing devotion.

Your Priest will not come for a day or a week. He will pledge himself to service of your Temple for his foreseeable future, because he will recognize that All That He Seeks is in your eyes, your belly, your woman's soul. He will find that you are his Gateway to the Feminine Divine, and he will choose wisely to honor you as such, despite his primal ego's longing to collect Yonis in a fruitless habit of tasting gates instead of walking through them and dwelling Within.

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By Mellissa:

We women have a secret. We don't talk about it much. Our memory is beaten out of us. But this secret must now be remembered. The secret lies in the action of a woman being Claimed by a man.